I have a hard time controlling my thoughts and honestly I just wish I could end it all. I don't even have the will to do that. I hate this feeling. Its worse cause I fight off thoughts of hurting others. I know I shouldn't be this way but its hard to get over this especially when I end up dragged back down. I know I keep being told, "hey get over it. blah blah blah." I try and get over it then something just comes up and I can't leave it like I want to. I want to but the those old memories just keep ringing through my head when I try to play games.
Sorry to be spamming my feelings and whining about stuff you don't care about. I can't tell you what exactly I'm playing through cause even I don't know any more. I can't really think straight and there's very few things keeping me happy. Sorry to have wasted your time with this.