Saturday, November 30, 2013

Podcast Dec. 1, 2013: (I hate Holidays)

Well...General bad news all round.

1st off Got a nice letter from Comcast that talks about limits on usage of their internet service.  Basically if I go over 300 GBs of usage a month I'll get charged a fee.  You might be wondering how could I possibly go over 300 GBs a month. Well a lot of things add up to it.  Uploads, downloads, streams, online play etc.

What does this mean well after mulling it over I decided to cut out Live Streams. Watching and actual streaming. That seems to take up a lot of usage. For one TwitchTV has pretty much enforced certain settings to be used when streaming or you can't stream at all. So a lot of streams these days are pretty high in quality and memory usage. While some people don't believe me I did the math myself personally basing it off the settings I use when I stream and my streams are pretty low quality compared to others.  So I pretty much decided to cut those out till a better situation arises. Besides I find streams are pretty much a waste of time for me in the long run anyway. No one really watches mine but a few people (that's less than 10). And when I watch other streams they tend to be rather boring with a chat that leaves you with headaches when you talk to them.  Anyway streaming is out.

If you must know I don't celebrate Holidays. I'm not fond of them. While there are some that say its the time for families to get together...I say that's what should go on everyday but it doesn't. Aside from that everytime I used to celebrate them they always tend to leave a bad taste in your mouth. That's pretty much it.  If you guys celebrate them that's fine. I choose not to.

Monday, November 25, 2013

sigh Damnit Comcast

Well one thing that's pissing me off right now.  My ISP Comcast has decided to enforce its Data Usage Cap plan. What this means for me is that everytime I go over the 300 GB  the limit I get charged fees.

While at first glance you're probably gonna say "300 GBs is nothing (and other responses that will make me facepalm at your way of thinking.)" It actually is an issue for me.

  • Livestreams either watching or streaming myself
  • Downloading games off of PSN or Xbox Live, etc.
  • Youtube videos
  • **Uploading Youtube videos**

Uploading is my main concern. I get a lot done in a short amount of time and I rather not keep my Video files sitting on my desktop eating up precious space no matter how big my Hard Drive space is. I was actually setting up my channel to make all my videos unlisted until a particular time. Basically with my videos being unlisted you can still view them in the playlist if you wish to instead of waiting for the next video.  But with this upload Cap I can't really do that anymore since I have to upload in big chunks and not have to worry about keeping the video files on a computer that may crash, delete, etc.

The other thing is downloading games. If you haven't realized it yet game download size is getting bigger as time marches on. And whether you like it or not (I know I don't) The world is moving towards everything digital. So that's a nice growing problem as well. We all remember talk of games having huge 30 - 50 GB sizes.  While it hasn't happened yet you know a day like that is coming. I already pretty much scrapped any plans for playing online as often as I wanted to in the coming months thanks to this data cap.

Pretty much means I won't be watching streams as much or streaming at all anymore. While I figure out what to do about uploading online....

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

SoulCalibur II HD Online: Some of the Old Memories are back only some

Ok the game came out like a day early on PS3 so I went ahead and downloaded it immediately expecting that a couple of friends would get it as well.  Shamefully none of them are really interested in this game because of the hold Blazblue ChronoPhantasma has on them.  Oh well I'll go in alone better for my psyche anyway.  Me and this game go way back as far as tournaments.

Starting Up

The first thing I noticed when I started was that Link afterall did not get included into the roster. I honestly don't care for the guy cause he's not really a good character IMO and I don't buy fighting games cause of character rosters.  Heihachi and Spawn made it however.  I quickly sorted through the options available and it feels just like the days of old.  The Mission mode, The Extra Arcade, Survival, etc etc. is all there. Shame that I have to look to old fighting games for the extra modes I like. The one thing that does bug me is there's no option for Japanese voices.  When I saw my mind went, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" For those that don't understand where I'm coming from on this. I played the first SC with Japanese voices cause that's what was available on my Dreamcast. I'm ok with English voices and don't really care for voice overs in general but I remember playing SCII and every other one after that in Japanese.  I'm so used to the Japanese voices that some of playstyle runs straight off that.  That's just one small gripe.

Arcade Mode

I immediately jumped on arcade mode seeing that I will have to unlock all the characters I like using. Even more so I gotta go through that Mission mode again and get Lizardman that'll take me a few days or weeks now...cause I'm older and whatnot.  The love of the characters saying random quotes that are rather out of place is still there.  My favorite being...

Ivy: It's time to die!
Kilik: Is there no other way?

The moves felt the same I just don't like playing on a PS3 controller for this.  I honestly would prefer and Xbox or GC controller for this game.  Playing 3D fighters on a PS3 controller feels awkward to me.  Anyway this was when the characters were broken and combos wasn't thing unlike later titles.  I say pretty much if you have the momentum its hard to break.  Not saying first hit wins. I mean once you gain that momentum you pretty much won.

I Guess I Should Talk About Graphics (Sigh)

I'm not one to note graphics on a game. If you know me well enough I not only don't care about graphics but I can rarely tell the difference between HD and SD. If I stare at the game hard enough or do a side by side comparison I guess the graphics have been improved.  I honestly don't care. ITS SOULCALIBUR II and I WANNA PLAY IT!

Music Just Like I Remember

The one memory this brings back is the fact that I spent a good chunk of money on buying the extra songs for SoulCalibur IV and it was honestly a total waste -_-.  Anyway this music is just like how I remember it not like that crap music SoulCalibur V has.  

Online Mode

(Note: 360 version wasn't out as I'm writing this)

This was a different feel. I generally hate playing online cause I usually have bad experiences with other players. Luckily PS3 is better about communication than 360 is.  I generally encountered good players all around. The way ranked matches keeps points is rather harsh. You can easily gain say 150 points. Then turn around and lose it the very next match.  A lot of people I encountered had 600 points then the next time I saw them they went down to 0. Even I did the same.  It still keeps track of your win/lose record however.  So far I had no rage quitters unlike other fighting games. The netcode in terms of playing for an hour and I got about 20 matches in on ranked. I had only 1 match where I caught a bit of lag.  But the game seems to fix it right away. I didn't truly experience input delay as I see others apparently going through.  My only gripe is there's random times where I will have no matches available. But once I back out the menu and select it again I get matches immediately.  I did encounter a couple of people more than once but I thought that was some runback feature LOL.  Honestly I expect that to happen cause the game literally just came out. Not a lot of ppl have the game yet.  Honestly it was a fun experience for once in the longest time.

Funny thing about my matches I pretty much just jumped in and tried remember the commands for each character LOL.  I was remembering stuff from SCV and SC1 LOL.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Been practically a year since I had heavy thoughts of suicide..

And still riding on edge day to day between killing myself or not.  Back then I actually had a plan on how to go about doing it.  I figured that my death would change the world in some way. At least that's how I wrote it out anyway. Cause my plan was to do something big. I wanted to make it so that cyber-bullying would apply to more than just kids. But I was only deluding myself. I know for a fact that a law wouldn't come into effect ever. They would just say, "You're an adult suck it up." Even more so my death would do nothing but appear on the news for 2 days...maybe a week at best.  Even more so I would hurt those that ended up affected by me.

I still want to get away from all of this. I find these days that few people care about what I have to say on anything. Even more so more and more people tend to ignore me cause I'm not on the same subject as they are. Or maybe cause the things I do changed from what they're used to. All I know is I'm not acknowledge if I say hi. Stuff at home is no better. With no support towards what I want to do instead I get told what they think I should do. The friends I have or maybe had at this point pretty much forget I exist since I'm not playing the same games they are anymore.

To make it worse I had thought of great projects that either fail or just never get done. When I put everything I have into something for everyone to enjoy it apparently fails to get any appreciation. The other projects I say what's the point cause there's no support behind it. I've had many ideas where I just say "the hell with it".

I don't know how I'm still alive or why I haven't killed myself yet. Maybe I'm just pathetic enough that I don't even have the will to do so. Very few things I'm holding on to that keep me going. The Bible for one with its messages of encouragement. Comedy in the games I play. I don't really have much to say to the friends I have cause the shared interest is so little.

I'm still scared of what would happen if I drop down into suicidal thoughts again. And things still aren't looking good. Maybe I should just be happy I haven't killed myself in a year since that day. But even with the help I'm getting I'm not sure if its enough anymore. Even if I get this insurance I can't get medical help till next year. I honestly don't know why I'm typing this...maybe to try and feel better...