Anyway not too much to talk about.
Hurricanes!!!Yeah Hurricane Irma passed by. I'm still alive. It was honestly the weirdest one for me ever. Considering how Katrina and whatever that one in 2004 was. This was the weirdest. Those 2 scared me half to death with how crazy the storms were. One of those storms knocked over a tree in my yard and smashed my shed. This one...it was scary but literally where I live nothing much happened. A big branch fell but it turned out to be one of the ones that already fell and was hanging on other branches. The tree that I expected to fall didn't fall at all. And there was no thunder. A somewhat light to moderate rain. And a lot of wind. I guess what did make me feel bad. My cat ran outside to kill a bird and try to bring back in the house. I essentially watched that bird die and didn't want to as I did everything to get it away from my cat. So that was a sad moment.
I'm worried about the other ppl and hurricanes along with earthquakes. Considering the horrible state of affairs in places like Puerto Rico, and Mexico. I hope they're safe or at least made it out alive.
GameflyI've been debating on cancelling my Gamefly account. The reason being is mainly due to money crunch. I feel like I could just cancel my health insurance since I feel like it's completely useless to me. But I know that if I cancel it. Watch something happen. As for Gamefly. It's nice to get certain games just to play them and then send it back. But at the same time I feel like I should be finishing those games or playing them a lot more. And I don't. I feel like I would do better just buying the game and playing it then that's of course after I save up for a very long time.
I mean considering all the consoles I have there's also no point anyway. Cause I don't have current gen consoles and people often complain about my 3DS game videos not being good quality cause it's not 720p and not from the stupidly expensive 3DS Capture Card.
I like getting games and movies of my choice when they're available but it seems like a waste and I should just stick to hunting on Google, amazon, etc. I really don't know but considering everything it seems like my only option to keep some cash.
Fighting GamesI really don't know how to say this. But I think I've grown a distaste for fighting games. The more I think about it the more I just dislike fighting games. I like just simply playing fighting games. I don't care about being good at it. But these days it just seems that you can't just play for fun. You have to be skilled. At least from all the videos I see these days. Even the amount of content in games feels like it's leaning towards skilled players. The utter lack of gameplay modes. The type of players and comments I see online. It's like Casuals pretty much don't have a place anymore.
Before I could just sit down and enjoy a game not worrying or caring about anything else but the game. Now I can hardly sit down for an hour and enjoy fighting games. I can't tell you the frustrations I feel when I try playing training mode or what I call "Do this combo mode" I don't feel like I'm learning anything and everything being taught doesn't seem like it's meant for a player like me. Heck online games in general feel this way. I can't just enjoy the game and have a good time. I have to reach this unknown level of skill first before I'm allowed to enjoy the game.
Anyway I think my love for fighting games is dwindling if not completely gone. Everything I loved about fighters has been replaced with some of the stupidest things I can imagine. Maybe if my audience and groups of people I could hang out with were more with the for fun attitude I wouldn't feel this way about fighting games. But right now, me playing 90% of fighting games feels like a bad SOAP Opera or an incredibly long never ending anime.
PlaythroughsWell Let's see as for playthroughs:
- The Sly Collection: Sly Cooper & The Thievius Raccoonus
- Sonic Mania
- Blazblue Central Fiction
- DBZ Dokkan Battle
- Marvel Future Fight
- Oddworld Stranger's Wrath HD
LivestreamingI talk about it again and again. Problem I have I would say lies 80% with myself and the other 20% with my imaginary audience. Myself is once again my age old problem. Not only finding the time to stream but also willpower and self-esteem. It would be easier to just stream absolutely everything I play on a daily basis. But I don't want to do that. I feel like I get distracted cause I'm streaming. Not only that but considering my audience it's a very fickle bunch and that's assuming anyone shows up at all. Since I don't stream the #1, AAA, guaranteed games and I don't really play them either. What's the point of even watching?
Then comes streaming for a very long period of time. I don't feel like streaming for only an hour. What gets done in an hour? That only works well with very few people.
The imaginary audience I already mentioned it lies in what game I decide to play and the quality of my equipment which isn't good. It's on the cheap end. I honestly say what's the point of it all. Heck I wonder what's the point of me even trying to record and edit videos from time to time.
This is just me and live streaming though.
FamilyI honestly grow tired of having family issues. While I'll try to avoid going into detail. It's just drama in the house. I wish I could just cut myself away from it all and stop caring completely. It hurts knowing that I have little to no power to get rid of my problems. I feel embarased having these issues and only thing I can do is complain about my problems.
I've been planning to move out. But at the same time I figure I'll just have to stop doing things like Youtube and other stuff. I'm not really up for that. But it feels like I have to.
DiscordFor my youtube channel I opened up a discord specifically for it. If more members show up I'll try and post more stuff there. I have a hard time being active in different places. Especially when it's rather boring. So maybe things can get livened up.
Here's a link to the discord: https://discord.gg/3qJjvsk