2020 is Here. I Need to Make Some Changes

First I need to apologize I pretty much deleted all the old posts.  Mainly cause it was just cluttered up stuff with links to the youtube video just uploaded.  I'm not even sure if people even view the videos.  I was seeing a few views on each blog post but I can't confirm if those are just bots or someone being nice.

Anyway I need to start over or I should say go back.  I did enjoy logging my adventures in whatever game I was currently playing.  I lost that enjoyment when, well times changed and people stopped reading and wanted commentary and I was having trouble finding the time to actually even mess with my blog. I tried auto-posting using a service that basically post links of whatever youtube video I uploaded to the video itself. That seemed to just kill the views now that I'm looking at it.

Anyway changes.  I going to try and apply changes to the Youtube channel that I need to do cause of stress and other things.

Video Release count down to 3 A Day At Maximum

Yeah that's essentially the main change.  I was doing 3 - 5 a day. Trying to fill in those slots and even worse trying to make sure they're uploaded was way too much work for just one person.  Especially when my Desktop can't render videos of 1080p fast enough. For the past few months I spent mornings or all-nighters getting videos uploaded for the day.  It wasn't pretty trying to beat the time slots I set.

I also feel like my connection is being throttled by AT&T.  The living situation changed and now we have another person living in the house. He uses the internet a ton just to watch Netflix, Hulu, etc. And it's usually left running for hours.  I know that sounds like "Oh that doesn't take up much bandwidth at all." But it's hogging the connection that's already spread thin.  Among phones, consoles, TVs, there's a lot eating the connection.

Removing 9AM (EST) Time Slot

I think that the 9AM(EST) time slot is the worst in terms of viewing my content.  While I could blame this on "Nobody wants to watch that video." I debated for awhile that everyone's likely at work, school, or just waking up. It's probably best I remove this time slot altogther.  I tried asking best times to upload videos by polls but it seems like people troll whenever a poll is thrown out. At least for me.

Really try to Livestream More

I want to try and livestream more.  In all honesty that where it seems like everything is at.  Not only that it should help with my anxiety of interacting with people. My problem is that at the specs my Desktop is at now. Streaming is almost outside the realm of possibility for me.  I think everyone I watch streams at incredibly high quality.  I can't really handle it for various games. So I ended up buying a headset mic for PS4 thinking maybe I can stream with that.  Not sure how well that will turn out.  But it's worth a shot.  I've done a few livestreams already in the past few weeks.

COPPA and Youtube

This is where I was worried for a few months.  After talking to Shai Samet from kidSAFE over the phone. He says my channel is pretty much safe.  The FTC is really only looking for BLATANT violations of COPPA. While it is left up to the individual to determine what's "For Kids" and What's "Not For Kids" I at least got a better idea at my content. 

There's the whole "Youtube should have a General Audience option". Yeah they should.  Youtube hasn't really given a reason as to why they don't have that. There's a ton of crazy stuff going on with it and we just want answers. Right now just best to play it by ear.

Life

It's no surprise I deal with depression and was diagnosed with it. Dealing with it with no medication is tough. Generally I never really know how I'm feeling till the end of the day.  I have days where I just can't move even though I should.  Reason I don't have medication is cause I can't afford the medication or health insurance.  The so called system that's meant to help people afford it. I don't make enough and I don't qualify for benefits unless something horrible happens to me (That or somehow age 30+ years and have a baby. Neither are possible). 

The worst bit I would say something every year happens that's essentially a trial. Last year was my dog going through surgery, year before my other dog and cat died.  Before that family issues. It goes on an on. 

So I just somehow grin and bear it. I do thank the viewers, new and old for helping me out with that. I'm generally afraid to interact with people in real life considering previous experiences and what's going on in the world now.

Right now dealing with my dog who's pretty much been in surgery twice.  The first time to amputate his leg. The 2nd to remove tumors.  It was due to our old veterinarian's negligence that led to my dog Chance having his leg removed. Between wanting to charge extra money to check the growths on his body to just never checking at all and administering medication that didn't work. We had to change vets. Thankfully this new vet knows what they're doing.  Chance went back into surgery recently cause of other growths on his body. We couldn't afford for those to be tumors and had them removed. Since he's already on 3 legs we can't afford for another incident where another leg is amputated since they'll just say to end his suffering. He would've had his stitches out yesterday but early yesterday morning he reopened one being strangely hyperactive.  So we're waiting another 2 weeks. 

That's a trial in itself. I don't want to lose another pet right now.  Losing the other 2 was bad enough.

Games

Yeah there's a lot of games building up on the list to play.  New and old.  Many unopened.  I'm not sure how I will tackle every single one.  Especially when the list just keeps growing.  What I want to do like I hinted at earlier is go back to logging my experiences here.  That might be rough however.  I'll figure something out.